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i'm in love with this guy that can't seem to realize that there are better things out there for them then his ex who is playing mind games. I don't want to just be his friend, or a bounce in and out of a relationship with him. I want him to love me and never want to leave me. I want him to make sure that I'm doing well, and that I always have a smile on my face. I want him to kiss me on the forehead and tell me he loves me when I'm having a bad day. I want to fight with him and him to get angry with me, but then smile and tell me i'm cute when I get mad. I want to cry my eyes out without getting embarrassed in front of him and him tell me that I'm beautiful, even though I have makeup running down my face.I want him to look at me and think that there is no other girl on this planet for him but me.
But it's not that way, he may love me, but not like he loves her. He may look at me and think i'm beautiful, but he'll always go back to her, and he plays these games with her, and I get sucked in. I'm sick of it, but i can't help but love him even more.